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I miss you mom. Terribly.

Today started out really good. Got up early, took the kids to Kimme to get their nails cut, took them to the park and came home and started to clean.   Then my friend from Business class came over to discuss the new Business Team that the school is starting. I knew about it and the first meeting was last night, but I had school til 10, so I missed it. He is one of the team leaders and wanted me to be his partner in crime. So we are on the Meetings something or other. We are in charge of getting local business owners to come and speak to the Business Team once or twice a month. He convinced me to go for breakfast so we took a little spin on the bike. To Panera, of course.
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When he dropped me off I was going to take a little siesta, and just as my eye lids touched the bottom of my eyes Grace went FREAKY. She has this 'sense' about her when it is going to rain. A good 15- 20 minutes before, she goes crazy. Then my Hippie Grass Man came over to talk about a 'plan' for my yard. And to NOT do the fertilizer this year because my yard is on a growth spurt. He is so funny, he sat on the porch, and Spikey sat in his lap. Never ever tried to run. So I sat out there with him and Grace chased the birds and he literally LAYED in Rich's arms and fell asleep. Then the thunder... Rich went home and we had a little Benedryl moment!!
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I decided to run to walmart when the rain let up and Grace was a little tired. When I got home this sadness just came over me. I started crying and missing my mom. Spikey has been laying in the door way to her room lately and just stays there. My Becks asked me to dinner and I couldn't even begin to think about leaving the house. I was going to make some brats and corn on the cob, but I made a pot of coffee and had that. I, unfortunately, deal with a lot of physical pain all the time, and when my pain is elevated and my mood is low, I need to just hibernate. A friend of mine in West Middlesex invited me to her home for Mother's Day. I had to say no, I know I am not ready for anything MD. My pastor asked me to please come to the Mother's Day breakfast at the church, but again, I declined. I think Paul and I will just go to church, then I am going to see if I can Coinstar enough money to just go to the movies. Yes, Coinstar, I'm hurtin this week. I got my check... 144.oo. After Tithe, the lawn for this week and next, my entrance fee for the upcoming Trunk Show in June and the gas bill, I was left with 13. BUT when I went to walmart and got my pain meds, my schemida stuff and medicated shampoo, I spent 26.00, so now I  have to find a way to scrape up 13.oo to put in the bank. Too bad I am not getting any inheritance. Too bad sort of . I had it all spent in my head, and you know something, God does not tolerate that of me. When I bank on something, He always pulls it away and makes me realize that I cannot do that. AND I always think I have learned my lesson. Then, I don't , and He pulls it away from me. You would think someone with half a brain would start understanding the Pavlov Dog thing. So, I'll go to coinstar and see what I can come up with!
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Well, I am going to get some sleep. Cool rainy nights are my favorite thing.