Thoughts On Thanksgiving Day

♥ Kind of a lonely day here at the Frichtel Ranch. Spikey is a little out of it, my mom is A LOT out of it and I'm starting back baking biscuits. I have an order for 4 bags tomorrow, so ... 

♥ My mom isn't doing well, and so we stayed home today. My cousin's husband is bringing us some dinner so we won't be  left out.   Family. 

♥ Looking at all the pictures from Venice Beach Feeding the Homeless today makes me homesick. I loved being there with my husband and getting up early and doing our part. Those days are gone. I actually dialed his number today I miss him so much, but I always 'miss us' too much when we talk. And I'm not playing second fiddle. I hope to someday find that again, with someone who won't leave. 

♥ I made a nice little amount from my baking sales to finally say I have a bit of working capital. 

♥ I promised God my tithe from the income, my tithe goes to the Rescue Mission because I don't   have a home church. Thank you Lord for the blessings.

♥So today my aunt calls my mom. I give her the phone and sit down with my nieces and brother in law and she says "who? Rosemary who? no I'm not Margaret Ann, thats my sister"...my brother in law just looked at me. I was glad I had some witnesses to the fiasco I live everyday. So my sister walks in the door and my mom is yelling "HERE SOMEONE TAKE THIS PHONE, THEY ARE LOOKING FOR MY SISTER". So I let Meg deal with it. She  hugged  me and said "I am so sorry you have to live with this". My penance, I tell her. I was glad though that everyone saw, because somedays its so overwhelming. 

♥ Is it weird that I miss my ex today... I just have to keep saying... Louise, Julia, Marty, Louise, Julia, Marty... doesn't help much, but it makes my stomach hurt so bad it takes my mind off missing.

♥Everyone is carpooling up to my cousins tomorrow in Chardon. Well, minus two. BUT, I am going to breakfast with my sister and nieces before they all leave. Oh, one niece, the other one is working on Black Friiday. I love them so much, you have no idea. I should have been a mom. A real mom. 

♥Well, I'm going to go bake, and get off this pity party train. Tears my cleanse the soul, but they give me a headache. 

♥ Happy Thanksgiving TCV. Love, your  'kids' and