whatta wednesday

today was such a great day. i have to say that i absolutely love the kennel. its funny, i used to think ppl that put their pups in doggy day care were terrible, but yacking with some of the 'parents' I realized that they were some of the best behaved dogs we have, and they are that good at home, too. Bentley. oh do i love Bentley. hes a wiener dog with the personality the size of a st Bernard!! oh boy. he's been there for 3 weeks already and isn't scheduled to leave for 2 more. so, he gets let out to play and roam around the most. who the heck leaves there dog in a kennel for 5 weeks...oh wait, I did. bleah. anywho, he gets let out last and i always have the door propped open to the big yard, and he runs in and out and to the end of the yard, then lays on the couch, then runs around the entire kennel, then back outside!!! he's a riot. his ears are as big as his body, practically. i often wonder if anyone would notice if I brought him home at night !! 14 more days, bent. hang on little boy . xo
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this morning before the kennel I drove around the souf side for awhile. the trees are almost bloomed and the cherry trees look amazing. its like its may! 80 today. 80 tomorrow! I cannot wait til after school tomorrow!
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Friday i am going to stay after school and utilize the library. it is awesome with nice chairs and I can get my homework done there. printers, and binders for us and a more disciplined area. its too easy for me to get up and do anything but homework at home. plus i have a busy weekend and I'd rather be all done with homework rather than doing a little here and there.
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an old high school boyfriend of mine passed away this morning. i felt so bad. he was only 54. I'm debating on going to the funeral. he lived in our old neighborhood and when Paul and i would go for walks or walk around with the kids we always stopped and talked to him. then his wife would scream from inside the house 'you have a family inside here...get in here now'. funny. i had a husband and kids and had no desire to lose that . so insecure she was. i saw him last Christmas at giant eagle. when she saw me she told  him 'get over to the deli and get me a number'. dang.
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i made a decision this morning that almost tore my heart out. I'm not interested in any sort of anything with anyone, so... i felt it was best to stop 'hoping' and snap into reality. my life is my 'kids' my school and my mom. period. no more fighting, no more 'what ifs' no more 'thinking'. its time to be realistic and let myself know that there is no going back. i have to move forward continually. continually.
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i ordered the vacuum sealed bags for our winter stuff and comforter and rugs etc... no more having to wash things because of mouse poopie. bleah. what a farce that ad is on TV though. buy one for 1995. no two for 1995, no THREE sets for 1995. bought 3 sets ... 52 bucks with tax and shipping and handling. i think I'm the one that got handled on that deal!
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well, its after midnight and i get up at 615, so in an attempt to get some rest, I'm going to hit it.
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have a beautiful Thursday xo