One
of my biggest beliefs is that we’re all created and placed on this earth for a
purpose. That purpose is deeply engrained in us and, if we allow
ourselves to listen to it, it’s what drives us forward. It tells us what our
passions are - what we like doing and don’t like doing - and we don’t have to apologize for it, because
it’s a fundamental part of who we are.
It’s what fuels our daydreams and
it’s the whisper in the back of our minds that tells us we’ll be disappointed
in ourselves if we’re working the same job and following the same unexciting
path one year from now.
Yes, it’s the same voice that throws
caution to the wind all in the name of passion, but it prefers passionate
hardships over easy-to-manage, stagnant doldrums.
It doesn’t care that we’re human
beings and creatures of habit. It just leads us to live life the way it’s meant
to be lived: happily and passionately. It’s greatest fear is that we’ll rob ourselves of our hearts deepest desires
that have been placed there by God himself.
I don’t just like this belief because
it’s an easy excuse for me to do what I want. I like it because, even if it makes
my life harder at times, my life is much more colorful and bright than
it would be if I followed society’s cookie-cutter plan for a woman my age.
Discovering
this drive isn’t hard.
What are your daydreams about? What
do you wish you could change about your job or your current life situation?
Where do you wish you had more freedom or control?
Asking these questions, if they don’t
blatantly give you the answer, will at least give you hints of what this desire
inside you is.
Take
time to find your own divine purpose.
If you answered the above questions
and still only have clues about your life’s deepest desire, take time to pray
about it. Set aside a few hours, go to your favorite quite place, your
prayer room, or war room, bring a hot drink and just sit and let your
imagination run wild.
Don’t let the expectations of your
family, friends or society get in your way. This can be the biggest burden,
especially since there are expectations on us. It will be one of the single most freeing, liberating, and
empowering things you experience.
And here’s some truth you’ll
discover: you don’t have to be married by your mid-twenties, you’re not
stubborn or selfish if you don’t want children, and if the idea of spending
years climbing the corporate ladder makes you cringe, you don’t have to do it.
Make
it happen.
This is easier said than done.
I was in a unique position. I had a
great job that I actually LOVED going to every day. Not an office, not
something with prestige, I wore black and white, and a HAT!! Then, I was fired.
33 years on the job, and the corporate ppl decided, I was no longer worthy. I
went from a baker at a country club, to a ‘grunt’, doing dishwashing and salad
prep. But still, I had my work and health insurance. Is this what it all came down
to?
I also knew that my misery in work
would also leak over into my personal life, so it was better to take the risk.
Taking a risk, was in fact less risky for my own emotional and mental health.
All I had to do was take a deep
breath, think to myself “ok, here it goes” and just do it.
I don’t ‘prescribe this’ for ANYONE,
but I met someone and we moved to CA. Never
really a dream, Key West with a best friend was my dream, but… it was an
adventure I will never forget, and although things didn’t pan out as expected,
I did it!!
Push
through with your will to thrive.
Undoubtedly, the hardest part of
saying yes to your dreams and no to whatever you have now is taking the first
step away from whatever it is that’s holding you back.
But
even once you’ve said farewell to the old and hello to the new, it doesn’t mean
your battle is over. You’ve still got to work towards what you want. After all,
in the words of Cage the Elephant, “Ain’t nothing in this world for free” -
even freedom.
Now that I am not working working, I
work 24/7. I carry a notebook all the time. I carry a camera, or my phone with
me to capture the inspiration that may have lead me to write about something.
My past hurts are healing. But I don’t want them to go away totally. I want to
remember each pain. Each way of dealing with the pain. Each way that I have
grown.
You won’t see me as a baker these
day. I hope you will see me as an author within the next 3 to 5 years. See, I
can sit down and write 4 or 5 pages each day, but usually when I reread what I
have written , by the end of the day, I have deleted 79% only to start the next
day, rethinking, rewriting, reimagining. Okay, that book my take 6 years ;)
Still working on that ‘pen name’ too.
I don’t want to embarrass my family, or get called out by someone who may
notice themselves!! I’m thinking…
Anastasia !! or not. Xoxo
11/19/2015 2:21 PM
MVF-W J
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