- I am thinking thinking thinking about this week. This last and final week of school. Of work of my life as I have become accustom for the past 23 months. So much has happened in those 23 months. My life, if I look back at where I was 2 years ago at this time, I feel sick, that I lived that. That I had to experience that pain, that loss that betrayal again in my life. Two years ago today on my blog I posted "I Need You Now" by Lady A. I was heart broken and my life was in a whirlwind once again. Today, I am studying for a final in Economics then sending my book to Amazon after the test tomorrow and getting ready for my Environmental Science final on Friday. After which I will walk out of school with my Associates Degree. I am proud to say that my weepy times are few and far between now. I have learned to put a wall around my heart and although I really enjoy my time with John, as I did with Jacob, no one is tearing that down. I love my life. Nothing is going to change that. Isn't it funny, Becks, how close John is to how Jacob was, in a good way? I am also thinking that I have a cookie order tomorrow, a cheesecake order for Thursday and dog biscuit deliveries after work on Weds. God is good, all the time. Even when He is perfecting us by fire, He is still with us.
- Enjoying the nice warmth of the house and the kids laying in their beds under the desk. I love my 'kids' and I cannot or will not get that love from another. I wonder if it ever bothers you what you have done to one person. If you ever think... dang, I can't believe that I could ever ruin one woman for life. Of course not. You couldn't because its not in you to care. Sad. What is sadder is how quickly one person can be replaced by so many. Sad, that I wasn't smart enough to see the signs and listen to the people.
- Feeling tired. So much studying, working, school, baking. Monday, I think I am going to sleep in. Because I can!!
- Wearing a warm T and some old boxers. Its my down time and its so comfortable in the house that the dogs can be warm and not shaking and I can be in this. Some pleasures are just wonderful.
- Needing... a massage. Truly.
- Wanting to find out what is going to happen in the next few months.
- Listening to Gilligan and the Professor, and Grace snore.
- Making Chocolate Chip Cookies.
- Eating... nada. Becks and I grabbed a burger at 5 guys and I am FULL.
- Drinking iced coffee. ahhhhhhhhh
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