Just a Blog Before I Go...

• I love CSN
• I was surprised by a late night bike ride after school last night. He came up to school, followed me home and we went to this little 24 hour place near Cleveland. me likey!! 
• There were flowers on my stand on the porch when I got up this morning. He's workin it.
• I have to get to the laundromat today. Quilts full of mud. Love spring at the Frichtel Ranch.
• Tomorrow is homework day. I got quite a bit of homework in Marketing last night. no likey!
• I had a big decision to make today. Our former pastor's dad passed away. My ex and I were going to go to the service, but, have you ever been so hurt by a person and group of people that you don't even give a crap? I wasn't going without him, because he started this whole issue and you best believe he was going to be BY MY SIDE when we walked in. To prove something? Idk. To 'show them'. Maybe. That's why I decided not to go. I don't have anything to prove to anyone anymore, and no one gave a shit when my dad passed, or my mom. My new church donated 100 to Hospice when she passed. My church or people of a church I attended for 20 years... not even a card, from anyone. I don't want to hold any grudge, but, I couldn't do it. Our pastor is now divorced and living with someone. He doesn't see his kids, and he doesn't go to church. My brother wanted me to go and shake his hand and say 'how's it feel to be in my shoes now', but... I couldn't even consider it. I think evil words are Frichtel issues. One part of my family I swear I will never be again. 
• I weirdly feel not much of a grudge towards my ex. And he started this all. Time heals all wounds. I guess.
• I got a friend request from an old boss I worked for in Santa Ana. I blocked him. He was another one that treated me like shit. I did work that younger men should have been doing. I showed up when his 'star employees' just didn't feel like it. B L O C K. Not enough time has passed to heal that wound!!! Dick.
• One of the best things that came out of that job is that one day I was at my in laws and they said to me that me staying at that job, they admired me for it. That made me feel so good. And it made me feel as if I let them down when I finally had enough and quit. 
• Well off to the 'mat' then maybe a little ride tonight. I don't want to have anything move too fast. I'm liking this, but I can't even get used to spending time with anyone buy my usual suspects. Them, I can trust. 
• have a great day!!