324am

Randomness At 324

• I am wide awake
• Pain. Female pain. I can't believe its back again and KILLING me. For real.
• Seizures. Grace had her worst one ever about 1 am. I miss mom. She would always sit with me til Grace got through it.
• Security. The heroin addict is out and about tonight. I was finishing up answering some emails a bit ago and I swear he ran between my house and the neighbors. He scares me, as does committing to ADT. What if I don't have enough money to pay every month? Spikey and Grace are going nuts upstairs. I guess I better decide soon to make the commitment. I thought that ass was going away to school. Its only April, he shouldn't be home yet.
• My neighbor called me the other day and told me that I could bring Spikey and Grace over on the long days I have at school. They are so sweet and they have the cutest white something and a built in pool and a DOGGIE pool because their whole family has dogs and they all hang there in the summer. Idk. Spikey likes to mark his spot. I have to think about it. Maybe for a few hours...
• I miss Rose. I cannot believe it when those words roll off my tongue, but I do. Sometimes, for no reason, at the weirdest possible times, I break down. I miss you so much mom. I'm so sorry for disappointing you and dad so many times.
• Today I called my buddy because I miss him. I get so confused on those thin lines, but he's as glad as I am that I called. Sometimes out of the sadness, comes a smile.
• Starting a DeTox cleanse. I have to do this before my blood work so I can know for sure if there is anything wrong with my liver, or, if it just needs cleaned out every once in awhile.
• Looking to buy health insurance. Dang. But, I don't want to lose everything I have to medical bills. Life.
• Well, off to dry my hair and try and sleep before my breakfast date with my sis. Have a good one.