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Did you ever just need to see something that makes you smile? That's me today. I have been in this horrible 'funk' for almost a week  now, and today, a family issue sent me through the roof. I was in tears tonight and seriously considered walking  away from my life. Between the yelling and the crying and the lying and the bullshit, I almost took the 'kids' and left here. But, I am still here. My head is spinning and words and things are just flying and repeating themselves in my head. I have an eight to ten page term paper due tomorrow and I can't concentrate on one thing. Many times blogging clears my head, so I am counting on that tonight. What happened here today can never be forgotten, and although I have to forgive my heart is torn into pieces. After today I can safely say that I will never be the same Mary you knew at one time.
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It wasn't all bad today. I was up at 5 am and showered and out the door by 6:30. I went to Panera by myself and had a souffle and a cup of coffee and worked on my paper a bit. Then I packed it up and headed to school. Today was Keyboarding finals. 5 hours of typing and retyping, submitting timed tests and listening to music. I ended up with a final of an A and a wpm of 55. Not bad, in fact I was very high in the clouds when I was through. I went to my friend Sam's office and got paid for some biscuits and her and I jibberjabbered about my starting to work with her on Tuesday!! We have become very good friends, and she will be my mentor as I learn to do FASFA's and student financial aid with her.
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After school I had an appointment with a woman who is in charge of state financial aid and scholarship money. It was such a great appointment and she did so much talking to me about my career and my future with Doggone-Yummy. Then I went to the store and the bank and came home. I'm going to leave home out of this because I don't think I could accurately rehash today.
All in all it was a good day. Its very quiet here tonight, there are no words that can be spoken, but no one or nothing is going to ruin my thoughts of what happened earlier. Pending tomorrow's grade on my term paper I am, so far, on the Dean's List. Just keeping my finger's crossed.
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Well I better get my term paper completed. Maybe I'll copy and paste it on here and read it as a stranger when I am through.