that moment when...

• ... you are laying in bed and enj0ying how happy you are and crying because you can't believe you made it out of the grief.
• ... your favorite teacher sits with you in the library and offers to give you extra help because he likes spending time with you.
• ... its cold as heck but at 330 we all get together and walk, no matter what.
• ... you want to say "I love you", but then Martina starts playing in the back of your head and you remember 'why'.
• ... your step children call you mom.
• ... you are quietly crying in the dark and your 'baby' cuddles next to you and 'kisses' away your tears.
• ... the person you felt so much for shows you that they never ever felt that same way for you.
• ... you pray, and God answers.
• ... you realize that someone who doesn't even have to care, goes that extra mile to make things right.
• ... you are under the covers, and your tummy doesn't touch the bed anymore.
• ... its OK to walk away from 'love'
• ... you step out of the shower and know that the Lord is with you, and its going to be a fantastic day
• ... you get an email. nothing with facts, not a bill, no one wanting you to send money to Ethiopia, just an email. I love you, thank you for all that you do for all of us. simple. and uplifting.
• ... you look around and there is no drama, there is no bs., there is no 'checking up', there is only love and trust and commitment. and you wonder why you allowed that in  your life. ever.
• ... your sister picks up your mom and you can enjoy the silence!
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• ... your best male friends hugs you and says 'you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. ever.  
• ... its time to say goodbye.