Break Through? ! ?

I'm weird. I have an issue that I deal with regularly. OK, maybe 3 but I think I found an answer, to one of them at least. The other day I forced my mom to watch Dr Phil. We don't usually watch that, but I saw a clip of the show and wanted her to watch it with me. The show was "I Hate My Daughter". Pretty eye opening show for a hated daughter. 

Anywho, she was awake through most of the show and was silent. Now she is pretty far into dementia and doesn't always remember much. But, during this show she looked at me and said "You don't hate me for anything do you?"  I said 'no' because I cannot live hating anyone anymore. Its exhausting.  During the show, I learned that I was not against the mom's that hated their daughters. I cried because their very reasons for NOT loving are the very reasons I chose not to have children myself.. I have found a 'page' on Facebook that deals with 'this issue'. I asked to be part of the group, but I really cannot read it for long. I cannot dwell on this nor do I want to read about it ever day. I have picked up a few books that seem to be amazing. I don't want to be my mom, so I chose to never be a mom. I know some really shitty parents who , for real, don't give a royal shit about their kids, and because they are shitty, don't really care about their parents. 

Here's something that may help those who aren't too late. All of the ones I know are, but maybe ...