What an amazing weekend this has been. Graduations, dinners, family, friends, love and lots of hugs going around. I was so glad to spend the day with my former sister in law. I just love her and just being around them. No airs put on there, just love em or hate em they don't give a shit! It was a great weekend all the way around.
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Gearing up for a busy week. Tomorrow the pool, then school and lots and lots of baking for Saturday. I kind of wished I gave Sheila her Tiffany Necklace tonight at dinner, but I didn't. We are having an all day bake a thon Wednesday and Friday, so maybe Friday.
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I just want to say one thing. If you call me a ''stupid cunt'' on my blog comments, please feel free to NEVER contact me again. When you catch me off guard and I am not remembering the words you spew at me, I get 'mushy', so just don't bother me, bother with me, or even ever think of me ever again. Its best that way, trust me.
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Planning my surprise party for my brother's 50th birthday is becoming fun. He already knows about it, so I tell him its a 'pretend you are surprised, surprise birthday party'. I think I am going to throw in a few surprises myself!!!!! But, since he creeps on my blog sometimes, I can't reveal that secret!!
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Well, off to bed. Funny, I put the new bedding on and its been like 40-50 at night. I may have to dig out my old comforter and put it under my new one!!! Glad I have the furballz to cuddle with at night <3
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Last night I was doing some soul searching... I seem to have stopped doing that, but a comment made me kind of stop in my tracks. Then today, I realized that I am HAPPY! Truly! I have nothing to be ashamed of. I have a great relationship with my sister and brother and most all of my family. I have decided that after the next quarter I may actually give in and start looking for something one floor to move to. I am in constant pain and going to the basement is actually hard for me to do. I have a place in mind out in the country, which I love, and the next time I am heading that way, I am going to call to make an appt to see the place.. I drove by it on the way to my ex's the other day, its not advertised, its just a little sign in the yard. So I took down the number and will wait til next week sometime. Anywho...soul searching. I am not ready willing or able to share my 'space' in my life with anyone. I LOVE who I have in my life. Almost TRUE love, but I'm going to keep this as it is. I don't want to share my life, my joys or sorrows, with anyone. My feelings, my thoughts...well, they are here. I can put them into words, and not have to end up not trusting or being hurt again. I have to say, marriage no 2 pretty much ruined me for life. I had lunch with someone that told me things about things tha\t I really cannot deal with ever, and repulsed me so much that ... well, its not worth ever EVER getting into a relationship again. No, a marriage again. I'm satisfied with the relationship I am having. No demands, no 'issues', and total trust because I don't HAVE to. So, I want to be alone, I want to be happy and I want to live my life on my terms. Once I graduate, I'll be ready to start making plans. Maybe by then I may want to make plans with someone...but no marriage. Falling in love isn't for me. Not yet anyway.
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Ok... off to cuddle! `
ily
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