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Easter Sunday.
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414 home alone tired hurting worried but smiling.
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these past 2 days have been rough. Tippi was busy. The kennel is packed and I am exhausted. Its days like today that I get antsy about being alone for the rest of my life. There is no one to help ME when my body shuts down. And that is more and more often these days. I'm afraid to discuss it with Dr Rich. I don't have the ability to pay to find out what is wrong now. Sometimes I just wish I had that 'one' who would stay with me forever. Or ALLOW there to be that one...
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this is the first holiday that I haven't been with family, ever. did you ever just have and effed up day that you don't want to be around anyone? luckily...sort of, I have a midterm, a 15 minute report and a paper to write on racism. We had to take an exam last week in Ethics. I was assigned Black-White and Gay-Straight. Seems I am in favor of whites over blacks and straights over gays. So now we have to write a paper on the findings. That'll be cool handing THIS in to my Black BiSexual teacher!!! I DID have an A average in this class. I'm screwed!
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A friend of mine got engaged over the weekend. He took her to GOTL , got down on one knee on a deck that overlooks the lake and asked her to be his wife. Ohhhhhhh that made me cry. My first husband and I put the rings in layaway and when we picked them up on June 11 th, the day before our marriage, he asked me as we were walking out of Kings.  My second husband and I picked ours up at a pawn shop and he asked me in the car in front of the pawn shop. smh. One thing I wish is that I would have at least kept my rings. Anywho, I'm on the cookie baking committee!! Its next fall, so I'm good.
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Well, I am making myself and the 'kids' some ribs for dinner. Back to the books and enjoying this quiet day.



A happy and a glorious Easter will this one be to all of us who get a new vision of the risen Christ, and prostrate ourselves in humble adoration at His feet, and cry out: "Rabboni! Rabboni!" Then shall we set our hearts, lifted into a new atmosphere, on things above, and reach an actual higher life. We shall know more of what it is to live by Christ, in Christ, for Christ, and with Christ, till we reach the marvelous light around the throne in glory. Theodore Ledyard Cuyler